I realize one thing today, i cannot be a big hope to anyone anymore.
I know its not good to say this, but this is one thing seems to be true for me. I cannot stand holding a hope of someone and destroy it myself, breaking my beloved one's most precious heart. I cannot stand myself doing that. But i don't regret on what has happened. I know Allah is testing me, or else is showing me that this is the result of my own mistake. Yes i'm sure that's it. I'm sorry, very very very sorry, i destroyed your hope. Your very big hope. My bad :'(
I cannot stop crying seeing how disappointed you are. I could feel how deep your hurt is. I'm truely truely sorry. Truely sorry.
PLEASE, DON'T PUT TOO MUCH HOPE ON ME ANYMORE. I'M AFRAID THAT YOU WILL GET HURT ONCE AGAIN.
Somehow, i'll try my best, my very very best next time insya-Allah. Just don't wait for that too much, i'm afraid i'll dissapoint you once again. I see how hopeless i am to you right now.